About 10 years ago my wife sat me down to tell me I was not an enjoyable sex partner. I was to small and not aggressive enough. Then she said since she was having much better sex with other men that were bigger and much more alpha than me, that we would not be having sex anymore. I protested of course, but she said it was either that or we could simply go our separate ways and she knew I didn't really want that. She was right. We stayed together. She continued to have boyfriends and I was left to masturbating. This is how it stayed and then because of medication I became impotent. Not that it was any big deal to my wife, but I had always enjoyed stroking my stiff cock. I went to a Urologist for an unrelated issue but during our discussions my impotence came up. He asked if I wanted him to write a prescription for viagra. I never tried it so I said sure. When I got home I told my wife about my visit and the viagra. I thought she was going to blow a fuse. She was so upset at the idea of me trying to have sex with her, she told me in no uncertain terms that we were never having sex together. I told her not to worry I would not be forcing myself on her, but that I did enjoy masturbation much more with a good erection. Then she settled down and told me ok fine just make sure the windows were closed when I did. Then I believe a little quilt crept because that is when she told me that if I had to find a girlfriend or even a prostitute to have sex with she could live with that. Now my problem is I've grown a desire and a real affection for black cock. I have had black cock before I married my wife, so I am aware of the pleasure it brings. I also like women, but I do believe my first sexual encounter outside of my marriage will be a black man if I can find one willing to have me.