Last week suddenly I woke up and was 50 years old. 25 years (the first 25) were spent in a cult: mind control and homophobia were part of my growing up daily routine, like oatmeal for breakfast. The following 25 have been about leaving said cult and coming to terms with being a gay. With no family or support system, this has led me to some very tricky, albeit interesting, life experiences. Part of the journey, so I am told (mostly from my trauma therapist).
As I enter the next 25, I have discovered a need to explore a submissive / slave presence that feels preternatural now. The second 25 I looked at such a lifestyle with distaste and bitter judgment: pathetic losers I thought. Thanks to some very much appreciated Doms I have gradually accepted this as probably my calling.
Then there's the love of Black Men (Lords, Masters, Gods, Sirs) that is also a type that I have not had loads of sexual experience with, but everytime I did, it was/has been positive. A random porn I watched referred to the BNWO. That, along with drugs, a lot more porn, reading and discussions (mostly on Twitter/X), I have been promoting the BNWO on my profile, have joined the "Club" and now actually watch more interracial straight porn than gay.
But as I look through Master Shango's writings and see the followers of this blog, I ask myself - what is the view of a gay in the predominantly straight / bi marketing of the BNWO? And of the followers of this movement? To reiterate: I am a total female virgin, I do not have a girlfriend or wife to be part of the cuckold fetish. Most Black Men that I speak to aren't interested to meet for this very reason. Women obviously aren't because they want the same thing, so it would appear that I am inferior competition. There's also the element of the "slut white boy slave" that involves chastity cages and feminisation. I should probably elaborate my gay-ness: I am a gay man. I like to have sex with other men. Caging my penis until, as I have heard it said, it becomes a "clit" and dressing up like a woman is not my thing.
Being new to the Slave world, I am asking myself: resisting these points of the cage and the dress, am I a "bad" slave? That these are pointers on most of the BNWO propaganda as requisites, does that imply that the BNWO movement is anti-gay, like some countries in Africa?
When the movement becomes stronger, will the "toleration" of the gay man into this world be closed off and eliminated? Will being gay not be okay and result in judgments held out that are similar to punishments in countries such as Uganda?
I sit here very confused and while I'm not actively worried about this rather dark potentiality, I do think about it. I left my family, the church and belief system because I believe that being gay is not something to be ashamed of or that is wrong in the eyes of God. While they are not perfect, neither is anyone else. And I have made some poor decisions as I explored the culture of gaydom. Sometimes I wonder if this is a mistake? As a Gay, am I wanted in this realm? Or is it something that I should pass and start taking up needlepoint or something less charged with so much non-clarity that it feels like I'm a bit lost with all of this.
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Gays in the BNWO
0%They are welcome and should find their place.
0%Get the fuck out, homo.
Often it takes a long time for ideas to change the world in a different direction or present a wholesome outlook. There will always exists a stigma attached to gays, likewise to other sexual orientation that most assume doesn’t follow the heterosexual creed. Even when looking at the cuckold lifestyle, most mainstream outlets still look upon such as fetishized stuff: the sort of thing that’s best kept hidden from mainstream view than to be allowed to spread around.
And when you consider American conservatism still dictates why many prefer keeping things hidden in the closet. Over in Africa, the fear/hatred towards gays is usually a projection of what most politicians claim to be American influence spreading across the globe.